my innermost thoughts

today…. i got so depressed…. i think i’m gonna have flanking grades…. i’m having difficulty with my physics and major subjects… i’ve had my share of sleepless nights but all are in vain…. its as if i don’t have a goal this sem…. my other subjects are affected… everyday, i feel like not coming to school but my mother’s motivation as weel as my siblings’ drive me to get up on my feet and march my way to school….most people see me as a student who doesn’t have any problems but they don’t know what’s really happening to me… i feel so pressured… whenever i got my exam results, i only wish that i got a passing mark… before, i’m not contented with low grades… but now, all i want is to pass this course…. this sem… oh, i worry too much… my grades, my expenses, my stipend, my scholarship… everything seems to crush down to pieces because of the anxiety i’m beginning to feel…. i feel like crying whenever i think of having a grade of 5… i just can’t imagine it…. right now, what i want is to sink in this chair i’m sitting on and go to a world where i will not have to worry about school… but then, i’m here on earth and nothing can change it…. i hope God up there will still help me….. i’m beginning to feel hopeless….. if there’s someone out there who have the capacity to give me more enthusiasm, i wish that he would come…. oh, i’m talking nonsense…. must be because of my frustations… i know that i’m not the only one who feels this way…. i just don’t know what to do…… God help me…..

Out There…. Waiting….

the sun came down and dusk came

as if it was chased by unseen shadows

things, lurking in the dark began to creep

the howling wind makes my skin crawl

the moon lit up the starless sky

and reflected in the deep black sea

there came a shrill cry from a distant house

that echoes in that slimy old mountain

deformed, ugly faces are everywhere

sighs of unforgotten misery can be heard

footsteps of the deadly phantom

approaching at a rapid pace!

a creaking, ramshackled door suddenly opened

a blurry image of a candle appeared

the flame, casting an eerie glow

mystifying, like your own growing fear

walking in that hallway of terror

escaping that shrieking, maddening fright

i say,"Don’t look back!…."

for they’re out there…. waiting…

crrepy man ako poem…. ala man gud ko lingaw…. dugay na man ni nko ghimo, kron plang nko gsuwat dri…. thanks for reading pipzzz!!!!!