it’s been a month and around 2 weeks since i left home and school… within this time period, i busied myself by applying for a call center job here in cebu.. luckily, i got hired after undergoing Language Pre-Employment Training in eTelecare Global Solutions… and i could say that this company is way cool… The trainers are approachable… my co trainees are nice… but let’s not talk ’bout them…
today is my birthday and this is the first time that i’m celebrating it away from home… waaaahhhh… the pain is unbearable but i should be strong.. i have to…
right now, i already accepted the fact that there are some things that no matter how hard you try, they still change… like no matter how determined i am to finish school in just 4 years, still it can’t be… i realized that it’s not that easy.. i also learned that earning money is not that easy… you’ve got to experience skipping meals for days or walking towards work before you have your very first salary… you’ve got to report to work despite a high fever just to earn a thousand pesos… you’ve got to push aside your pride for you to borrow money from people…
i remember last week, after my shift, my co trainees and i went to mango square to relax a bit.. we sang our hearts out… (I’m thankful that they’re not the bunch of people who would push you to dirty ditches..)… i was happy for a moment.. but when i got back ny boarding house, i suddenly cried… at first i don’t know why i’m crying… after a minute of thinking, i realized why… i missed my old life.. my family.. my friends… my love one… i missed the simple life i had way back then… i kept asking, why is this happening to me? i should have been at school, busy with my thesis and anxious about graduation… but i stepped back to reality and looked around me… what i saw is a small room without ventilation… i felt so alone…
is this reality? way back college, i learned that people have different realities… right now, i’m exposed to another reality.. the reality of living alone… the reality of working and earning money.. the reality of being away from the ones that i love.. the reality of struggling just to keep in pace in this big city…
i still cry whenever i think of the cause of my current situation now… but somehow, i learned to adjust… because if i don’t, i’ll end up as a loser and i hate losing… i think this is just one of God’s way of testing how far will i go… and i feel so blessed because He gave me reasons to know myself better… that i’m capable of doing things that others can’t…
i’m thankful for the things that come my way.. before, i usually pout over these inevitable things.. i refused to understand… now, i look at the brighter side of it… as what my co trainees said, i am still lucky because i found a job even though i’m an undergrad… that i should be proud of myself because there are many graduates out there who have no jobs… yeah… they’re right.. absolutely right…
now… i could say… Hello reality!!!! i’m ready for all the challenges you could offer… Try me!!!
