my innermost thoughts

classes have already started and im not quite excited… y? becoz i miz my classmates… i miz my frends… i miz my hyskul and college classmates…
hahai…. 4th yr n mn gud cla and aq, nhibilin… ambot.. khilakon jud q… gmingaw sad q sq mga barkada… hai….im still adjusting to my new classmates… di pa q kaau krelate nila…..hai…dn bsag mkuyog q sq mga classmates
sauna kai i still feel lyk im left behind… maybe ngself pity r q…ambot oie!!!
im starting to be a loner…mgkbestfrend jud mi ani ni library….wel, nindot nua… but there’s still this emptiness within me…dugangan pa jud na m.lessen amo txt2 ni kuya… samot n jud q ani kmingaw…. hai!!!!!! i wanna scream… i wanna cry… hai……. i juz miss them.. :-(  …. and this feeling im having ryt now rily sucks!!! i can’t hardly breathe wen i think bwt them….grabe jud cguro q k.attached sq mga frends….
sentimental mn gyd q… i rily wanna turn back the hands of tym and relive the memoriz i had with them.. if only…. hhuhuhu… i know mkrecover rq ani…unta lang… 

im juz wondering y ang uban taw makapalit ug sigarilyo yet di cla mkapalit ug bugas??.. y r there sum pipol that wen they have the money, they spend it on alcohol kaysa sa pgbayad ug utang??? why??? why?? why???…. y is it that there is "government warning: cigarette smoking is dangerous to your health" yet dghan ghapon ang msmoke and nanaghan ang pgproduce ug different brands of cigarette? i wonder y they say "drink moderately" yet dghan ghapon palahubog???… ironic jud!!! hmmm.. im juz strting to see things…mkaalingit mn gud kai naai uban taw nga bsta naai kwarta, inom daun but kung pgkaon na ang hisgutan, mangutang na hinoon… dn y is it nga naai uban nga kusog au mnghmantai pero wa kabadlong sa ila kaugalingon???… hahai.. nbuang ra tali q kron.. ambot lng jud… it rily pisses me off wen i found out nga ang imo gbuhat kay way hnungdan….sayang2 lng sa oras, sa krta ug sa effort… hai……….alanis morisette must have felt wat i felt ryt now wen she sang "it’s lyk rain on your wedding day.. it’s a free ride wen u’ve olridy paid.. it’s a gud advyc that you just didn’t take….. isn’t it ironic???!!"…. hai……

the election was juz over but the counting is still going on… hahahaha.. i’ve done my part as a gud citizen of this country…. well, mao mn lng ghapon, cla2 ra mn ghapon ang mdaug.. kita ra jud ang gtonto… hahahahhah… well, frankly speaking, i was not in the mood to go to the precint that day because i was frustrated…. y? duh… wa mn gud lami ang mga nanagan oie… way au…. az in jud…but i kept thinking, if i will or will not vote, will it make a difference??? will it change our country’s current situation??? sometyms mn gud kai mkhuna2 ka nga politics will always be politics…. bsag maau ka pa, basta msud ka ana, di jud mlikayan ang mga discrepancies….dirty game jud ang pulitika…. y? wla pa gni ngsugod ang election, dghan na ang nahitabo nga di maau.. ang uban kai patyon para lng mksure nga mdaug cla…hahai…other candidates will make sure that their opponent will be ruined by saying nasty things against them.. hai…….so i ask, will my vote make a difference????!! i juz hope so….

we were having a gud tym in the haus wen suddenly, a loud noise broke out from our neighborhood.. ders a riot!!! our clingan was throwing stones at one of our neighbor’s haus!!! the rison??? he was caught having sex with a prosti living in that particular haus!!!! gosh?!! cn u imagine his shame??? hu caught him?? the owner of the haus!!! ur confused, ryt? wel, hir is the story.. the gurl is a boarder in that haus..this gurl is known to flirt wit boys.. the landlord is her fling.. then cums anader neighbor hu had sum afternoon delight with her.. then, the owner saw them!!! in split-second, a fist-fight occured between them!!! the guy hu was caught immediately went outside to get sum stones and deadly weapon… he then begun wrecking the place…. gosh!!!! he did make a scene in our place!! soon after, the police came and they were caught- the two guys and the gurl… then the whole neighborhood begun to make chismis….including me… hehehehhe…. the moral of the story??? lock ur doors if u want to do sumthing miraculous.. heheheh.. im only joking… really, this incident is so dsgusting… how pathetic that gurl is.. hahai.. she shud have sum respect for herclf.. well, im not preaching but i think gurls shud be more discreet… tsk.. tsk… so much for this liberation..

creepy things hav bin going on within our haus.. dli p mn unta halloween… first, my mom’s celfone was missing.. we thought it was stolen but i missed calledher number for a dozen tyms, it wud juz ring!! if it was stolen, the thief wud remove the sim card… the following morning, we sawher cp juz wer it was placed b4 it disappeared.. ang nkacreepy lng ky we never heared it ring… the second was our newly bought shades was missing along with my celfon.. b4 theday ended we found the missing items inside the bag hanging near our ceiling…kinsa mn pod ang mgbutang ato nga taas mn to kaau… tsk.. tsk.. tsk…but the most creepy thing of ol was my missing smart sim card… i wasvery certain it was lost coz it was not inside my cp for about 3 days nah.. ds afternun, wen my sister asked me if she could borrow my tm sim, she found my smart sim beside my tm sim inside my cp!!!! i started to fell goosebumps… d day wen our shades were missing, my aunt felt her body hairs rising evertym she entered our haus!!! she then told us that there is another being living with us… now, im beginning to get paranoid.. hehehehe.. but i know God is watching us…

it ol started wen we had our  fildtrip last feb. 15-18.. we went to brgy. bagacay for our magsasakang-siyentista documentation.. dt was our final project for our dc 151 subject w/c teaches us the basics of video production… there, we tok shots, conducted interviews and made friends with the Manobos…
i really had a nyc tym in there… but the real pressure really started during the editing.. hmm.. we had at least 1 wik of sleepless nyts and skipped meals… we didn’t have tym to go home, take a bath, or even brush our teeth!!! despite ol of these, my classmates as well as my groupmates (though only 3 of us worked in our video…duh!!! i hate thinking bout those lousy pipol hu made the 3 of us very angry!!!), enjoyed the whole ordeal… we had non-stop fun in vicarp.. hehehehe.. aside from learning how to edit videos and mix music, we had unlimited access to internet!!! heheheheh… we also had our share of sapot…. but it was a very exhilarating experience… my group had  "Tribal Challenge" as our title… but wat i experienced was  
a
far more different challenge!!!!

ds morning, i went to my suki to buy e-load but then nahurot na daw so i decided to go to another store. i paid 30 pesos for the load and went on my way… when i received the confirmation text that my number was already loaded, i was shocked because i received 200 pesos worth of load!!! not only that, 5 seconds later, again, i received another 200 pesos worth of load plus 75 free texts!!! can you imagine how lucky i was???!!! but then, my conscience tagged me… i told myself i shud tell the retailer about it.. as i was on my way to the retailer, she texted me to go to her and return the excess load… we agreed that i’ll return the 200 through pasaload and the rest, i’ll pay… quiet a fair deal coz if we’ll take a look at it, alkansi jud xa.. well, it was not my fault…  hehehehhe… so next time, we shud be more careful… hehehehhhe…..

juz ds morning, i was on my way to skul… as usual, i hav to go to the terminal to ride a multicab… it took almost 15 min. of waiting before the vehicle started to get on its way.. i noticed that the driver is somewhat bongol… wen at last i caught a glimpse of my beloved skul, i told the driver to take me to an. sci. because walking wud only mek me late.. i saw me nod twice… wen we were olridy at the guard post, i moved nearer to the driver and trold him to take me to an. sci. again..he first went to home sci and stopped… nhibulong q kay wala may mhunong… i told him again dt my destination was an. sci (forthe 3rd tym!!!)… to my astonishment, he began to get mad at me.. he told me:"m.ingon pa lng ka daan dai, wa n lng unta q msud..!!!"… it started to irritate me, thinking dt dr was also a passenger hus destination was the admin, it was unfair…wat rily pissed me off is dt he kept on glancing at me in his rearview mirror, staring at me with mad eyes.. i begun to yawyaw because i was olridy very late!!!! so i told him:"msugot rb ka mga msud ta… ayaw cge yaw2 dha noy!!! kna ky ngpasud, mplete jud q ug tarung!!…. dha nlng q ihunong sa ihk!!!"… i know wat i did was very rude, but he kept on murmuring and staring at me… wen we were olridy at the ihk, he stopped and told me dt the ride was for free…(free tuod but pirte pud niang yaw2!!!!!!)… i gave him my fare but he wont get it.. we started to argue… he gave me again that killing stare… so i said:"aw… bhala ka dha noy ug di ka mdawat sq plete!!! salamat sa pgp.late nimo nq ug sa sapot!!!!" and immediately went on my way…. gggrrrr!!!!!… i swear.. if ever i saw again that stupid driver, bahalag mlate q bsta di lng q makunsemisyon!!!

…. definitely confusing!!! hahahahaha… well, partly true and partly not… confusing jud diay!!!  hehehehe… many pipol wud say that i have this maldita character in me. well, i dont blame them but wat they see is not wat they get… i may seem supersuplada but naa pud sa lugar… get wat i mean??? hehheheh…m.andar ra mn aq kmaldita if sum1 will provoke me.. others say that sa dagway pa lang daw nq daan, klaro nah…duh!! the hell i care… hehehehe… dr was ds one tym  that ds "maldita" issue hit me… ol the lil kids in our neighborhood were in our house, playing … dn, the moment they saw me, they scampered away with the words "dali na mo oie!! naa na c ate maldita!! kasab.an ta ana…" hehehehe… poor kids… i must’ve scared them to death… but later,  i thought, am i rily dt rude???!!!… i ask mah friends bwt it and they say that my character   makes me of wat am truly am.. (hmmm… sus.. kung di p lng amiga, im sure glibak nq… hekhekhek..)…. but wat rily pisses me off is that sum pipol hu hardly know me, even dos hu have only seen me once or twice, wud definitely say that i am MALDITA!!! whew!!! wat a heck!!! well, i rily dont cre bwt them… i still have dt soft syd in me… swerte ang mga taw nga nakakita sa aq positive syd… naks!!! (hehehehe… ng.self pity n mn q)… duh!! ol i know is im doing mah own thing and wala akong inaapakan na tao… bow!!!

hehehehe…. one tym, my devcom classmates decided to wear eyeliner to skul… hehehehe… one of our teachers remarked to our "memorandum" and said that sumthing weird is going on… hehehehe.. she even sed insecure dw xa…hekhekhek… and wat suprises me is dt my brothers as well asmy youngest sister is wearing eyeliner… they say it’s essential in wat they call emo…hehehehe… emo or not, wearing eyeliner is definitely coooolllll….. heheheheh…